I've decided after good example to write some diary pages with toughts and events.

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And if not? I won't hesitate to use legal means to correct wrong that may be done otherwise. And I am serious. I usually am. I'm not sure I could get 'attempt to grave emotional assault' out of it, but infrigement on copyright rules is serious enough. And Jesus called uponus to respect the authorities of state, so christians would of course never do such a thing. Lying, imagine that.
 

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August 13 1999

I've go to the other place with a Mac with video capturer to get picts I've made from places that played major roles in my past, to put them on here, probably I'l put them in this page, so hang on.

Here they are

Pictures

The electrical engineering building in Delft used it about 6*8*300/4 times the ee lib

the building in the back 'koornbeurs' is a anchient building that houses a student club I was member of, sort of a 'younster' club, it wasn't for students, nyone who wants a beer, a band or the other activities (from sailing to printing) can join. In fact I became member because I knew a few former presidents, and I regularly saw bands (which were free for members). I've performed there as well, a number of times. It's got protestant roots, lettem stick with their foundation, didn't work bad.

trees opposite to the Hague central station

the station itself, and the Dutch telecom on top of it. I've worked there a while as a student in one of their directorates. Lots of test telephone exchange machines.

The pancake place where I went with Ingrid first night, scheveningen (on the boulevard).

she lived on the right side of this pic, too

Delft station, twice

me reflected in the window of my highschool
inside it
and on the lower front side of it

greengocer near my parents' adres where I've earnt parts of my first synthesizer (in like 1984) and 3head cassette deck

parents house

next time I may take the cam inside, see what they've got to say. Or send a balloon by the window...

The cantine, congress building and university library

kurhouse (tourist place next to beach)
ah well...

Did some hip pan/zooms near the beach to, but alas, I don't have an mpeg3 encoder, or sufficient server space (or bandwidth, for that matter).

A high def videocam would be nice.

A movie idea

The Brain Machine

Progress in various areas of science may well lay bare the foundations of inter-brain (or bady) communication, and the mechaninsm that underly spiritual communication.

Assuming that much of our lives is at least influenced by the spiritual c.q. extra-perceptory information streams or reservoirs, such as the Youngs' collective subconcious, scientific, logical and fundamental ideas are required to deal with it in the way most civilized forms of society have formally prefered to deal with thew rest of tangible, organizable, and shared human life.

Many films exists that explicitly deal with the spiritual, and in most 'normal' ones extra sensory perception and transmission are integral part of story line development and interaction in various ways, but it is not common to take the subject to a level where assertions are made about shared thoughts, prayers, and non-human forms of non-5-sensory communication.

Vodoo, exorcism, certain christian films, and some science fictions genres will explicitly involve the spiritual (as a general term), in various degrees of desirability, but none of the ones that I've seen will make it a subject that allows explicit scrutination or even full-circle rational assesment, give or take certain ritual with alledged effects or God speaking to mankind using an inner voice or images.

Taking as a thought generator seed that some of these principles can be used to generate interaction between mechanistic man-made devices, considerably more refined than current MRI or MT scans and temperature measurement, and especially that actual thought patterns can be induced by some machine, the 'brain machine', fundamental questions about human and spiritual interaction are automatically concretized in a way ameanable to scientific thought and experiment.

This is not necessarily of a destructive or even undesirable sort, but as with nuclear forces and their possibilities, the effects can be tremendous, and when unleashed require the best brains to harnass, learn to control and apply.

meeting white/blackboard with connection graphs, clouds (as network topologies) some concepts, or better fragments from a documentary shown to to CIA audience.

'the brain machine' a medium blue box with HF-type circuits that is first capable of generating lets say 'brain waves' to induce directional and limited-distance thought patterns.

the brain image sampler (self explanatory)

some more or less devious genious (because that way it is credible that such machinery is not the immedeate end of the world) tries figure out how to get from samples to more credible thought patterns that some unaware subject may take for real thoughts and non-gut feelings.

the story lines develop around the same subjects as in detective, police and law enforcement series, and find their final application in the instituted forms of gouvernment: influential circles, official information related institutes including universities, and the parlement.

The most rigorous resistance will come from religion related circuits and institutions maybe for reasons of justified and solidy founded concern, certainly for reasons of serious exposure and fear of loss of power.

Not many will like the idea in genereal much, considering there's enough misery and sin already, no need to dreate more trouble, and having one's thoughts messed with it genererally not a very desireable situation, so the essence will be to communicate certain expected properties of both the brain machine and the associated theories and applications.

As always with profoundly influential personal subjects, such as sex and love, it is of essence to find out what is desirable and which ways there are to desiria (as in utopia) and how to formally ascertain it keep tracking towards the main modes of operation.

What is death? Who was Christ in that sense?

The crux of the proposed movie lies in the application of currently known methods to interface with the integrity, happiness, sanity and freedom of persons, especially when it concerns various forms of the negative application of these, such as emotional and sexual abuse, misinformation, blackmail and ownership.

And i mean business about the thought links that are without any doubt in my mind generated for the If practically realisable, I'd prefer a realistic depiction of the kind of wrape and torture that I've read about being an essential ingredient of the way evil and death-worthy circles want their main target victims to stay under their control. The girls that have potential and therefore are subjected to social and thought connections to oppress them into becoming vehicles for this kind to proceed being in power and continue their abusive system undergo things I don't even like to think about, but Jolanda's book has been the direct reason for me to think about what such incredible torture may do to a person, and in short: I can't imagine. What I can do is understand that in any form of wrape and situation of almost unbearable pain and agony connections may be formed that later on can cause problems, and may be very hard to discern, face, and correct.

I suspect stronly that these kind of human to human connections, enhanced by their social games are a prime reason why such incredible grave abuse can live, and is not stopped very soon and rigorously. The talented ones that would in a society form that is reasonably acceptable end up on the top to make things work form a tangible from of human life with serious fundamental problems in sensitive areas, and the 'brain machine' actualizes the discrete, tangible reason to deal with the problems involved, and acceptable thoughts about their solution.

The idea of a machine that starts to be able to mimic human thought patterns mabe inducing desires, images, sounds, and delusions clearly opens the door for explicit dealing with lies, spiritual bondage, incorrect human connections, and their effect on life and its constituents.

My major thesis that preferably is made very credible, is the uninvertability of the radon transform, effectively meaning that 3d sensors such as the brain and the body ALWAYS fundamentally speaking can discern direction, distance and hence identity of a impinging signal, meaning in the end it is not possible to plant 'brain wave generators' everywhere to create thought patterns indistiguishable from (other) people.

Sort of like a VR experiment, where it is always possible to escape the room where the virtual images and sounds are generated to find out whats real or not. Simply because of geometrical constraints one always will discern the glitches and hard boudaries of the virtual world that is presented. A good, simple and quite to the point comparison is stereo vision, not a bad comparison for the distance measurement facilities of any multi sensor (the brain?) receiver, regardless of wether an electrical, magnetical, particle, gravity or any other not extremely anormal field component is concerned in the transmission.

A clear image of a desirable living together form while dealing with all the subjects involved is the top theme that makes the subject acceptable.

Living in thruth and trust because of that?

The blue brain box of course may more or less decentralized transmit globally verified thoughts, maybe like a publicly accesible internet site containing verifiably true information, or even linked to such?